Late Night Calls

So, the time difference between here and Afcrapistan (stole it from Rachelle) is 14.5 hours. When JP gets off of work it's 4:00 in the afternoon there, but 1:30 in the morning here. Needless to say, I get phonecalls in the wee hours of the morning. I LOVE getting his calls! I wish that we could talk longer and more often. I had to buy and send him a laptop in disguise. Last deployment we made the mistake of putting on the customs form what was in the box and someone stole his Macbook. I had to jump through hoops to get the money back, even though I payed for insurance for that reason. Anyway, now we're waiting on it to get to him so we can talk over the webcam. It is so intensely difficult not being able to just pick up the phone and dial his number to talk whenever I need to. I find myself thinking that I can a lot. I love the sweet things he does for me from so far away. The other day, as many of you saw, he sent me three dozen roses, a teddy bear and chocolates! He lights up my world! I got an e-mail a few minutes ago from him and he is sending me more gifts! I love the things he sends, but NOTHING can replace having him here. I miss laying in bed at night with him talking about life. We always lay there talking until one or both of us falls asleep. I hate this! Problems arise and I have to wait on him to either read my e-mail asking him to call or just wait for him to get off work. I absolutely cannot wait for this freaking deployment to be over and behind us! I know some people say that we shouldn't complain about the communication because it's a privilige to even be able to talk at all. I KNOW it is, trust me. It's just extremely hard when you have children together and things happen with them that the other parent needs to know. Ugh...my stress level is through the roof at this point. I need a break! I wait for the sound of his voice on the other end of the line. I long for the comforting touch of his hand that says without a word, "I'm here and everything is gonna be ok." So, I wait for the day when he'll be back and we can have our late night conversations once again......